TAMMY'S

So… I’m just sitting in this cold office, doing whatever I need to do, waiting for time to pass, and waiting for my nails to dry (heh).

I am bored. There should be more to life than this. Actually, it’s not really boredom I feel, but more of tiredness and frustration. IF you know what I mean. It’s not having to come back every SINGLE day even though internship has ended, it’s having to do something I don’t like, knowing I’d most probably not handle such stuff in the future. Oh well, I guess everything happens for a reason. Who knows, few years down the road I might have to put my experiences into good use.

FOUR more days. Just FOUR. After this, I will gladly say goodbye to this place, this cold, suffocating place which holds so many unbearable memories… Okay. So I might be exaggerrating, but really, you don’t know how much I dread coming to school each morning when I wake up. I don’t see a point to MANY things. For example, coming to school everyday! But great! It will soon be over.

All these said, I must say although it’s tiring and eating at me, I don’t regret taking on this project. I believe it’s really a portfolio booster. That, I’m really thankful for. If only some things could be changed for the better. But then again, let’s not dwell on the ‘ifs’ and ‘what ifs’.

Come next Monday, which is just five days away (!!!), I won’t have to draaaaag my feet to school, dreading every SECOND of it. I’m gonna start making plans for next Monday onwards. Learn the things I want to learn, have more “me” time (especially since half the day won’t be spent in school!) and better quiet times, earn money, have fun with my life and not have anyone/anything bothering me!

Great, Tammy. Life starts on the 1st of March.

:)

Wheeee! Just about a week to go!!! So many things to look forward to after RSVP. Fish & Co. dinner with The Agency and Mr Tay, and then Agency retreat to Pulau Ubin (I hope)! Life is starting. :)

I admit – My nerves were a little fried the past weeks. Many frustrations (I believe people close to me would understand why) and disgruntledness and feelings of injustice. I think I went a little mad on some occassions.

Anyway, I’m so thankful and happy I’ve got great shampoo to use (yes I’m quite vain like that – but all girls need great shampoo for their beautiful tresses!). I washed my hair at Reid’s home after our BBQ session for Walentines last week cause my hair stank of BBQ smoke. And they had this wonderful shampoo called Petalsence. I used it and my hair became so smooth and soft and great smelling! Something I’ve been trying to seek for in shampoos but have never seemed to have gotten since my hair started growing longer! So TO CUT THE LONG STORY SHORT, his mum gave me the shampoo (and conditioner!) after finding out how much I liked it and have been trying to look for it (I tell you, they don’t sell this outside!).

I want to go on holiday. Unwind, have fun and just absorb the culture of another country.

I’m finally going to get some exercise done! Gonna go swimming at my aunt’s condo tomorrow, since Mr Tay has so kindly gave us off! To settle our Uni applications and stuff.

That reminds me, I need to get my hair trimmed. I haven’t cut/trimmed it in… I think almost a year… If not longer. Cause I was in the stage of being desperate to grow my hair out. Now that it has, it has also gotten a little weak at the ends and knots and split ends have been forming. Time I went for a trim to rescue my beautiful hair! Hey, if there’s a part of my body that I love the most, it’d be my hair. Not that I don’t love the other parts, I do.

Yes, I realise this is such a vain post! But you know what, recently, I’ve been thinking – I’m already 20. If I don’t start taking good care of my body, when will I? When I’m 40? I’m sorry man. I wanna look young and healthy all my life. And what’s the key to that? Eat right, exercise well, and PAMPER YOUR BODY. Like going for spa treatments, Thai massages, mani and pedis, etc, etc.

I mean we women deserve it. These services were made for us! I’m sure many of those “stuff” used in spas, etc originated from long ago and I’m certain women in the past had many ways to pamper themselves.

Don’t all women want to look immaculate at all times? I’ve not come across a woman, who in her 20s, wishes to look grimy and untidy. Have you?

So, since women are beautiful beings, we should all go for these mind-destressing, body pampering treats. :)

I’ve got Pst Kong on Facebook! He’s really one hip and cool pst. :) And he loves Sun a lot! His latest Relationship sermons have been awesome. Helps Reid and I go on to another level in our relationship. And his sermons are very relatable, whether or not one is from Church.

And to my friend who’s following the call of her life now, all the best! You must be feeling the excitement already right? I can feel that bubbling anticipation from you. Anyway, come what may, you’re gonna do a great job! And “till further notice from Above” (Ng, 2009), all the best! Excel! ;)

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Everyday I wake up, I tell myself, one day nearer to 28th Feb. I’ll be one EXTREMELY happy girl at 12mn on the 28th of Feb. I can promise you that.

For me, Life Happens on the 1st of March.

Anyway, on a brighter note (oh yes, there are things that displease me and disgust me SO much, but oh well. I can’t say anything about it – at least not now and here, but trust me, it makes me MAD), I am really grateful for the wonderful friends around us (namely Nitha and myself) who so willingly take time off their schedules to help us sell tickets for our events! I mean, seriously, they can simply say it’s none of their business and brush us off, but I suppose they see our desperation. Hahaha. If you know us, you’d probably know it hasn’t been easy for us. And the friends who extend their support by telling us that they’ll definitely make it for our party and that they will invite all their friends – you guys/girls are great. :)

I pray the ticket sales will go well!

Okay.

It’s late and it’s MPM (morning pm) tomorrow! So, off to bed or else.

Yes. Am having panic attacks over final report. I just wanna get it over and done with. But how can I when I keep being distracted? What with, you ask? Well, Facebook, for that matter. And blog surfing for another. Gahhh. Looks like tonight will be a loooong night.

And I still have to practise guitar! Ahhhh!

I was so into my report just moments ago. Then when I finished typing that particular section, I got distracted. Please, I don’t wanna take a break every 45 minutes of typing. PLEASE.

Sigh. What’s the point in me feeling this way… I know everything will be fine in the end.

Can’t wait to breathe that sigh of relief as I hand in my final report and when Friday night ends.

:)

Do a good job.

Haven’t been blogging in a while. No mood to do so – simple as that.

These days have been really busy and tiring. How I long for the 28th of February to come…

CNY flew by, leaving me wishing for more…

I’m tired of going to school! Everyone’s internship has ended – but not mine… Not for another three and a half weeks, no! But I know I gotta grit my teeth and just do what I have to do. Afterall, I believe I will reap what I sow. That reminds me, I have not done my final report, and it’s due this Friday. With SGEM heavy on our hands, I’m sorry but I really have no mood to do my report. Even though it’s just 10% and Mr Tay’s nice about it, I still want to do a GOOD report. Y’know what I mean… Well, like I always believe and say… Everything will be OK in the end. It just will… But of course that doesn’t mean I would ignore my situation.

Anyway, to make this post more disjointed than it already is, here’s an invitation…

Please, I cordially invite YOU to come down to RSVP (Really Super Verbal Party) at Zouk on 28th February, Saturday from 8pm – 10.30pm. THIS is what I have been busy with – planning for a party at Zouk. Buy our tickets! Only S$10 (includes entry and one house pour) OR you can buy the S$25 (entry, one house pour and NUM t-shirt). Well, for more information check out our FB site: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=49624201301&ref=mf
You can also book your tickets (indicated which) by emailing your name, contact no., I/C no. and no. of tickets to rsvp.theagency@gmail.com

COME, COME, COME. And invite all your friends along.

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I’m tired.

Goodnight.